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October 03, 2021 03:09
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Chapter 49
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Time weighs down on you like an old, ambiguous dream. You keep on moving, trying to slip through it. But even if you go to the ends of the earth, you won’t be able to escape it. Still, you have to go there—to the edge of the world. There’s something you can’t do unless you get there.
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October 03, 2021 03:05
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Chapter 49
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Every one of us is losing something precious to us,” he says after the phone stops ringing. “Lost opportunities, lost possibilities, feelings we can never get back again. That’s part of what it means to be alive. But inside our heads—at least that’s where I imagine it—there’s a little room where we store those memories. A room like the stacks in this library. And to understand the workings of our own heart we have to keep on making new reference cards. We have to dust things off every once in a while, let in fresh air, change the water in the flower vases. In other words, you’ll live forever in your own private library.”
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October 03, 2021 02:57
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Chapter 48
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It’s like part of you will always live inside me.
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October 03, 2021 02:46
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Chapter 48
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All faint, but to me it’s like corks have been pulled from my ears and now everything sounds so alive, so warm, so close.
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Contrast to meaningless silence for hoshino after nakata died
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October 03, 2021 02:44
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Chapter 47
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No matter what, you have to go back,” she says decisively
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October 03, 2021 02:44
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Chapter 47
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. I have to go back, no matter what.
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October 03, 2021 02:43
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Chapter 47
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“Look at the painting,” she says quietly. “Keep looking at the painting, just like I did.”
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October 03, 2021 02:36
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Chapter 47
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When you’re with me, then, you’re a seamless part of me?”
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Is it because you absorb their view of you, changing yourself?
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October 02, 2021 17:12
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Chapter 47
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The boy named Crow listened, and this unheard laughter—as vacant and ominous as wind blowing over a far-off desert—never ceased. It sounded, in fact, very much like an otherworldly flute
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wtf just happened. shooketh
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October 02, 2021 17:05
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Chapter 46
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But when I listen to this music it’s like Beethoven’s right here talking to me, telling me something like, It’s okay, Hoshino, don’t worry about it. That’s life. I’ve done some pretty awful things in my life too. Not much you can do about it. Things happen. You just got to hang in there.
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October 02, 2021 16:59
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Chapter 46
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ensconced
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October 02, 2021 16:41
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Chapter 45
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The silence grew deeper, so deep that if you listened carefully you might very well catch the sound of the earth revolving on its axis.
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October 02, 2021 16:35
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Chapter 44
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no longer tell if his thoughts and feelings were really his
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October 02, 2021 16:35
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Chapter 44
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Not that anybody’s life had more clear-cut meaning to it. What’s really important for people, what really has dignity, is how they die. Compared to that, he thought, how you lived doesn’t amount to much. Still, how you live determines how you die
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October 02, 2021 16:34
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Chapter 44
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Before noon the next day, Wednesday, Mr. Nakata was dead
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chills
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October 02, 2021 16:34
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Chapter 44
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Meaningful sounds all ended up as silence.
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October 02, 2021 16:31
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Chapter 44
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Nobody’s gonna read it now,” Hoshino said. “I don’t know what was written in it, but it’s all gone. A bit of shape and form has disappeared from the world, increasing the amount of nothingness
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October 02, 2021 16:31
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Chapter 44
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“Can nothingness increase?”
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October 02, 2021 16:29
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Chapter 43
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Symbols are important,” the tall one adds. “We happen to have these rifles and soldiers’ uniforms, so we play the part of sentries. That’s our role. Symbols guide us to the roles we play.”
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October 02, 2021 16:26
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Chapter 43
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Not long afterward, the two soldiers appear
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chills
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October 02, 2021 16:21
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Chapter 43
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My soul sloughs off the stiff clothes of the self and turns into a black crow that sits there on a branch high up in a pine tree in the garden, gazing down at the four-year-old boy on the porch.
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October 02, 2021 16:20
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Chapter 43
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I’m walking by the shores of consciousness
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October 02, 2021 16:18
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Chapter 43
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83.9%
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This forest is basically a part of me, isn’t it?
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October 02, 2021 15:57
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Chapter 42
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83.5%
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Until the bitter end, the emptiness inside her was hers alone.
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October 02, 2021 15:57
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Chapter 42
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He felt like he’d heard that voice
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Amazing!
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October 02, 2021 15:55
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Chapter 42
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There was no more pain there, for someone had siphoned it off forever. The circle was once again complete
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October 02, 2021 15:51
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Chapter 42
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And that’s why I opened up the entrance stone—to prevent our perfect, private world from collapsing. I can’t remember now how I managed to do it, but I decided I had to open the stone no matter what—so I wouldn’t lose him, so things from the outside wouldn’t destroy our world. I didn’t understand at the time what it would mean. And of course I received my punishment.”
She stopped speaking here, picked up the fountain pen, and closed her eyes. “My life ended at age twenty. Since then it’s been merely a series of endless reminiscences
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October 02, 2021 15:49
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Chapter 42
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I took the place of the fifteen-year-old boy who should’ve been there,
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October 02, 2021 15:49
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Chapter 42
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It wasn’t always easy, but suffering is something I’ve had to accept.”
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It is the waiting
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October 02, 2021 15:49
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Chapter 42
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It
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October 02, 2021 15:49
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Chapter 42
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That’s true,” Miss Saeki said. “It hurt more and more to hold on to them, but I never wanted to let them go, as long as I was alive. It was the only reason I had to go on living, the only thing that proved I was alive.”
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October 02, 2021 15:46
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Chapter 41
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I head off into the heart of the forest, a hollow man, a void that devours all that’s substantial. There is nothing left to fear. Not a thing.
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The Es muss sein was fulfilled, leading to lightness.
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October 02, 2021 15:43
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Chapter 41
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you
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Remember that story of the miner? Not your average bildungsroman I suppose.
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October 02, 2021 15:41
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Chapter 41
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he/she
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October 02, 2021 15:41
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Chapter 41
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The tree cries out silently, bleeding invisible blood.
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October 02, 2021 15:33
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Chapter 40
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80.3%
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literati
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October 02, 2021 15:31
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Chapter 40
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79.9%
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Freedom and the emancipation of the ego were synonymous.
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October 02, 2021 15:29
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Chapter 40
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79.5%
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deleterious
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October 02, 2021 15:23
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Chapter 39
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78.2%
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Now you understand it
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October 02, 2021 15:23
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Chapter 39
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78.2%
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entwined
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October 02, 2021 15:22
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Chapter 39
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78.1%
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If there’s a curse in all this, you mean to grab it by the horns and fulfill the program that’s been laid out for you. Lift the burden from your shoulders and live—not caught up in someone else’s schemes, but as you. That’s what you want.
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October 02, 2021 15:16
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Chapter 39
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77.1%
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If the weather was the same I couldn’t tell one day from another. Yesterday, today, tomorrow—they’d all blur into one. Like an anchorless ship, time floats aimlessly across the broad sea.
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October 02, 2021 15:08
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Chapter 38
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75.3%
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fugue
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October 02, 2021 15:05
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Chapter 37
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But you can’t really understand how wonderful it is. That makes you impatient. And that, in turn, leads to despair.
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October 02, 2021 14:45
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Chapter 35
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69.7%
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collecting the scattered bits of my consciousness
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October 02, 2021 14:31
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Chapter 34
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But if you really pay attention as you listen, you can catch a hidden longing for the modern ego. Like a far-off echo full of contradictions, it’s all there in Haydn’s music, silently pulsating
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October 02, 2021 14:29
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Chapter 34
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Nothing to worry about back then, he reminisced. Just live each day as it came. As long as I was alive, I was something. That was just how it was. But somewhere along the line it all changed. Living turned me into nothing.
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October 02, 2021 14:27
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Chapter 34
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When I’m with the Buddha, I always feel I’m where I belong—something like that. Forget about culture, truth, all that junk. That kind of inspiration’s what it’s all about.
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October 02, 2021 14:27
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Chapter 34
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Life’s crappy, no matter how you cut it
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Meaningless?
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October 02, 2021 14:24
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Chapter 34
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Sunk back in his soft chair, eyes closed, lost in the music, a number of thoughts crossed his mind—mostly having to do with himself. But the more he thought about himself, the less reality his existence seemed to have. He began to feel like some meaningless appendage sitting there
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October 02, 2021 14:23
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Chapter 34
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insipid afternoon programs
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October 02, 2021 14:23
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Chapter 34
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68.3%
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scuzzy
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October 02, 2021 14:20
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Chapter 34
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else. You are somewhere else.
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WOW! Intentionally not using cliche triplet! Bravo
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October 02, 2021 14:19
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Chapter 29
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59.6%
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Reality and dreams are all mixed up, like seawater and river water flowing together. I struggle to find the meaning behind it all, but nothing makes any sense.
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October 02, 2021 14:17
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Chapter 33
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67.5%
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You
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Amazing perspective change!
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October 02, 2021 14:13
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Chapter 33
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Saeki
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Her car was not there the first time around, does this mean that was a dream?
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October 02, 2021 14:12
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Chapter 33
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The people who build high, strong fences are the ones who survive the best. You deny that reality only at the risk of being driven into the wilderness yourself.”
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October 02, 2021 14:11
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Chapter 33
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Having an object that symbolizes freedom might make a person happier than actually getting the freedom it represents
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October 02, 2021 14:08
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Chapter 31
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So things have settled down?”
“It seems like it. Or maybe we’re just in the eye of the storm.”
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October 02, 2021 14:05
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Chapter 32
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65.8%
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The air was damp and stagnant, with a hint of something suspicious, as if countless ears were floating in the air, waiting to pick up a trace of some conspiracy.
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October 02, 2021 14:03
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Chapter 32
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Johnnie Walker used me, but I didn’t have the strength to fight it. Because I don’t have anything inside me.”
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October 02, 2021 13:56
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Chapter 32
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64.1%
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motley
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October 02, 2021 13:52
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Chapter 31
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I scoop up some sand and let it slowly spill out between my fingers. It falls to the beach and, like lost time, becomes part of what’s already there. I do this over and over.
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October 02, 2021 13:51
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Chapter 31
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Anyone who falls in love is searching for the missing pieces of themselves. So anyone who’s in love gets sad when they think of their lover. It’s like stepping back inside a room you have fond memories of, one you haven’t seen in a long time. It’s just a natural feeling. You’re not the person who discovered that feeling, so don’t go trying to patent it, okay?”
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October 02, 2021 13:49
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Chapter 31
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Spanish Civil War.”
“Metaphorically.”
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October 02, 2021 13:47
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Chapter 31
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I had something too complete, too perfect, once, and afterward all I could do was despise myself.
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October 02, 2021 13:47
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Chapter 31
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To desire me, you mean.”
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October 02, 2021 13:36
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Chapter 30
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Anton Chekhov put it best when he said, ‘If a pistol appears in a story, eventually it’s got to be fired.’
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October 02, 2021 13:36
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Chapter 30
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61.2%
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dramaturgy
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October 02, 2021 13:35
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Chapter 30
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A very postmodern kind of thing. If you think God’s there, He is. If you don’t, He isn’t
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October 02, 2021 13:34
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Chapter 30
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60.4%
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insensate
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October 02, 2021 13:34
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Chapter 30
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Neither god nor Buddha, just the insensate. As such, of the good and bad of man I neither inquire nor follow.”
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October 02, 2021 13:30
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Chapter 29
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60.0%
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That’s the chorus behind me.
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October 02, 2021 13:06
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Chapter 28
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58.7%
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The pure present is an ungraspable advance of the past devouring the future. In truth, all sensation is already memory
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October 02, 2021 13:06
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Chapter 28
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58.8%
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volitionally
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October 02, 2021 12:58
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Chapter 27
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56.6%
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If we reverse the outer shell and the essence—in other words, consider the outer shell the essence and the essence only the shell—our lives might be a whole lot easier to understand.”
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October 02, 2021 06:32
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Chapter 27
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56.1%
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bated
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October 01, 2021 14:43
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Chapter 17
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34.0%
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There’s only one kind of happiness, but misfortune comes in all shapes and sizes.
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October 01, 2021 14:43
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Chapter 17
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34.0%
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Happiness is an allegory, unhappiness a story
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October 01, 2021 14:05
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Chapter 15
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28.5%
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Flip this around and you could say that where there’s no power to imagine, no responsibility can arise. Just like we see with Eichmann
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October 01, 2021 07:20
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Chapter 12
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20.8%
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prototypical memory.
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September 26, 2021 07:10
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Chapter 9
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15.1%
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brambles
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September 25, 2021 19:31
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Chapter 8
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14.3%
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broached
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September 25, 2021 19:28
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Chapter 8
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13.9%
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toto
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September 25, 2021 18:42
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Chapter 7
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12.3%
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traipsing
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